yes, that is a good question. what do i do? really, what is it that i'm really doing here, right now. goals, endings, friends, me, men, job, money, life, things and other things. what is it that i actually want. because it seems like what ever i want, i somehow ending up getting it, always. but i always let go of it. why? i always realize that i really don't want what i just got. it was just a question of a thrill and a challenge, so the question is;

what do i really want?